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Pennies From Heaven

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I’m a great believer in signs. I think they are always all around us, guiding us, and giving us the insight and inspiration we need in the moment.

A significant sign, to me, is noticing an increase of pennies, nickels and small coins in my path. I’ve learned that one of the most common signs that our deceased loved ones are visiting us is the use of small signs and symbols.

About a month after my dear friend Sam passed away, I started seeing coins in my path quite frequently. I would find pennies randomly and seemingly out of place. At first, I didn’t think much of it, but when I started finding coins staring straight back at me on a regular basis as I went about my day, I started paying more attention.

Like the day I was leaving a photo shoot at a pristine Wall Street building. I was feeling stressed and anxious about a work situation, and was rushing to another appointment. As I was speed walking and working up a sweat in my scarf and heavy winter coat, the shiniest penny I have ever seen was right in front of me on the immaculately kept marble floor. There literally wasn’t even a speck of dirt on the floor, but there in front of me, a penny.

After weeks of seeing coins in my path, I slowed down, smiled, looked right at the penny, and said, “Hi baby, I love you.”

I knew it was Sam. I knew he was telling me, “It’s ok. I’ve got you. Everything is going to be ok. Everything is going to work out. I am with you. You are supported. You are valuable. You are loved.”

Whatever tension I was holding onto was immediately let go. I relaxed. I knew it was all going to be ok.

I had gotten used to seeing pennies, sometimes nickels and dimes on my path, but it had been about a week, and I found nothing. I remember saying to Sam, “What’s up? Where have you been? I miss you.”

That same day, on the subway, I looked down, thinking I saw a penny, and it was just old gum stuck to the ground in a circular shape.

Now I was joking with Sam like we always did in person, asking him again, “What’s up? Oh, you think you’re funny. Ok.”

The very next day, I met my friend Melissa at a Thai restaurant in Jersey City. She was already seated, and waiting for me at the table. I sat down, ordered some food, started talking, and telling her about Sam and all the coins, and how I hadn’t seen any in a while.

About a minute later, I looked over to my left, and I was literally sitting next to about 200 coins spread out all over these Buddha statues. I literally laughed out loud and got the chills from head to toe.

Sam and his hilarious, very dramatic sense of humor! I could hear him laughing hysterically and saying, “I’ll show you, Kate, I’ll get your attention in a big way!” It was such a beautiful moment with my recently deceased friend. I felt so connected to him, and so silly for ever doubting he is always with me and loves and values me so very much.

Whether you have recently lost a loved one or not, finding coins is a major sign that we are highly valued. Please take this to heart, and when you notice a coin that seems out of place, take a moment to take in this important message.

I believe when our loved ones cross over, they want to let us know they are doing well, watching over us and sending their love. I also believe they send small signs and symbols by placing something like a penny in our path to point us in the right direction.

I continue to find comfort in these “pennies from heaven.” I see the significance of the number 1 as unity and a oneness. To me, it’s a sign that there is unity and Oneness in the afterlife, and also a unity and Oneness between my loved one and me. I feel his spirit move with and through me.

I know it also means my deceased loved ones are always visiting, guiding, protecting and loving me while showing me I am valued and never alone. The coins are a gentle reminder to slow down, enjoy the present moment and be thankful.

The next time you see a coin cross your path, allow yourself to pause and remember:

You are valued.

You are loved.

 

A Simple Exercise For Deep Healing And Transformation

IMG_5718 The Pagoda at The Sanctuary at Two Rivers in Cabuya, Costa Rica

I have attended several spiritual seminars and retreats this past year, and the biggest take away from them all is the power of sharing your truth with others. There is so much strength and wisdom in being vulnerable and authentic.

When I share my story and speak my truth, my life is transformed. Trauma and sadness from my past lose power over me. I feel lighter as the tight grip of shame is released.

Opening up and listening to others also allows me to see how much we are all alike–we all long for the freedom to be ourselves, to be loved and accepted in a compassionate, judgement-free environment. We are all insecure in some way, we all battle with not feeling good enough, we all want to love ourselves deeper and more effortlessly. We want financial freedom, peace of mind, and to know that we matter.

Deep healing and transformation occurred for me through journaling and sharing truth. The exercise of writing down the story I’m ready to release, and replacing it with the story I’m choosing to create has proven to be life-altering for me.

I invite you to take some quiet time for yourself, and do the following exercise with me:

The story I release is…

For example, I wrote: I have so many sad stories when it comes to men. There’s no need to rehash them here. They’ve lived in my bones for years. I’m healing those sad stories.

In Costa Rica, I released all that sadness, and the stories I created around these men that aren’t based in reality, but fear:

Am I good enough?

Am I pretty enough?

When I accomplish more, I will be worthy of him. He will notice me, and want to be with me.

I’m not skinny enough for him.

It was my fault.

Why do I insist on loving men who do not love me?

 

This is where you get all your sadness, anger, disappointment and trauma out on paper. Take as long as you need. Get it all out. No editing needed. Just write. Cry. Release.

Once you are finished, you will now turn the page in your journal, and write the NEW story you are creating for yourself.

I wrote:

It all sounds so silly now.

It has nothing to do with them.

It was all happening for me.

It made me who I am today, and gosh I love that person. I light up a room. I tell the truth. I am beautiful just because. Any man would be lucky to be with me. I’ve done the work. I’ve worked my shit out. I own who I am. I have so much love to give. I know because I’ve given it so freely to others my entire life.

Now, it is my time. I’ve learned to give this ridiculously fierce love to myself. I am strong. I am powerful. I am happy and in love with myself. That’s how I know I am ready for my papi. Not so he can complete me, or allow me to live up to some silly societal standard, but because I deserve to have mirrored back to me the love I so freely give.

It’s time. I’m ready. Thank you for all the lessons. Thank you Raf and Sam (my deceased loved ones) for watching over me. I release you now, too. You are free to go, and let me love someone who truly loves themselves–only HE is the perfect match for me.

I love you, Kate 🙂 xoxo

I shared this story with the 14 other women on my SISTERHOOD retreat last week in Costa Rica. I sobbed the whole way through. It was a huge release to get it all out, be my most raw, vulnerable self, and call in the new story and life I am consciously creating.

The day after I returned home, I met the kind of man I have been praying for–the man I called in during my retreat. We had a beautiful first date the following night. I could easily project fear onto the relationship because of my past, but because I released all of that and now choose joy and love, I am able to relax, enjoy the moment, trust and expect miracles.

I wish the same for you. It is your choice. You have all the power. All you have to do is step into it.

IMG_5743 The Sanctuary at Two Rivers where I wrote the story I was ready to release.

 

 

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